"I admit... one of the hardest realizations I ever had in that place was the moment I looked upon her and realized that the nightmare was just the last glimmers of the power of a poor girl who'd never done anything wrong. I... I could never fault any of you for your choices in how you tried to help her. Whatever actually happened, most of you actually did want that poor girl to have peace." She sighed as she said it, resting her forehead on her hand and smiling sadly at him.
"We did what we could for her, Varian. I will carry her memory in my heart, but now... I am sure of one thing. She wanted us to continue on, and I will do that."
(OOC: I know I'm wrapping up some stuff, but I feel like this one has a couple tags left in it, to finish the thought. They're sort of at an important conversational point re: Julia here. I'll continue this as long as you like, teef.)
"Yeah, that was...difficult," he exhales, rubbing the back of his neck. "Maul was upset about that. Choosing to put her out of her misery. But all she was at that point was a ghost. It was like she was suffering and badly, letting her carry on felt... crueller. Like- like we were forcing her to stay in the cage everyone else had put her in."
He'd thought the answer on how to deal with Julia had been simple. Everything they'd learned about her to that point had suggested she was a suffering child- and that last memory.
"I think we chose wrong, but I don't think there was a right choice, either," which is about par for the course for them really, no winning allowed. "But you're right. She'd...want that from us."
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"You did not choose wrongly. You made a choice, and it came with a consequence. It may not have been the result that you wanted, but that did not make your choice wrong. I do not believe that there was a 'right choice' in that situation." There was a pause and then she smiled sadly. "Other than sparing Doug. He never did anything to deserve harm. It was not an easy choice, and though Maul and I saw eye to eye on our wish, I think... I have learned that it is better to think the best of each of you in this. None of us could have known if our choice would have had the result that we wanted."
And honestly? Had her choices been made by everyone? The result might not have been nearly as good as she thought they would have. "So I think you are correct, that there was never a truly right choice. That poor girl was dead before we even knew her. I wish I could have known her in life. I will hope for her to have a chance at rebirth one day, a new hope."
"I don't know, Vira, I think dooming a child's soul to a monstrous existence in the waking world is a pretty solid 'wrong choice'," he says with a tired, wan smile. "But you're right, none of us knew this would happen. If we did, most of us probably would have picked differently."
A pause.
"Except for Doug. Only the worst person alive ever would have chosen to hurt Doug."
That, at least, is a universal fact amongst Sleepers. Doug is good people.
"But...yeah, it really sucks, but by the time any of us got to the dream it was already too late. And it's not like any of us could go back and change that."
She sighed sadly. "I... don't think we doomed her quite to that. I think she simply... died." But she wasn't entirely sure there. That last conversation had been unclear. Time would tell, or it wouldn't. "And such is the way of hindsight."
A nod. Look, even Larxene hadn't broken his egg. That was saying something. "Doug... is a good soul, and I hope he's here somewhere. For all the pain we endured, he was a kind hearted one, wasn't he?"
"I guess we shouldn't have expected any different, Deerington has always been...well, what it was," he smiles, nodding. "Me too. I really hope he's happy here. That he's got his dogs."
"We should look around to see if he's in town sometime soon," she said. "Perhaps we can make sure this Trench is ... awful but not as awful." Or at least make the town an oasis in the awful. That seemed more likely.
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"We did what we could for her, Varian. I will carry her memory in my heart, but now... I am sure of one thing. She wanted us to continue on, and I will do that."
(OOC: I know I'm wrapping up some stuff, but I feel like this one has a couple tags left in it, to finish the thought. They're sort of at an important conversational point re: Julia here. I'll continue this as long as you like, teef.)
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He'd thought the answer on how to deal with Julia had been simple. Everything they'd learned about her to that point had suggested she was a suffering child- and that last memory.
"I think we chose wrong, but I don't think there was a right choice, either," which is about par for the course for them really, no winning allowed. "But you're right. She'd...want that from us."
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And honestly? Had her choices been made by everyone? The result might not have been nearly as good as she thought they would have. "So I think you are correct, that there was never a truly right choice. That poor girl was dead before we even knew her. I wish I could have known her in life. I will hope for her to have a chance at rebirth one day, a new hope."
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A pause.
"Except for Doug. Only the worst person alive ever would have chosen to hurt Doug."
That, at least, is a universal fact amongst Sleepers. Doug is good people.
"But...yeah, it really sucks, but by the time any of us got to the dream it was already too late. And it's not like any of us could go back and change that."
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A nod. Look, even Larxene hadn't broken his egg. That was saying something. "Doug... is a good soul, and I hope he's here somewhere. For all the pain we endured, he was a kind hearted one, wasn't he?"
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He's not convinced it was that simple. Nothing in Deerington was ever that simple, why would Julia's passing be any different?
"...Yeah, he really was. He was one of the few natives who actually cared about us the entire time. No ulterior motives. He just cared."
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"I sincerely hope to spend time with him if I can. So hard to find good people like that."
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