[Varian doesn't like telling this story, but he never turns away people's questions and opinions on it. Hell, he expects them. What he's been through, what he's done, is a lot. So he waits there, shifting uneasily, letting Dipper process all of this. ]

I've learned not to do any of that again. [Obviously. He exhales softly. ] I'm not gonna tell you I'm magically a better person, Dipper. I don't- I think that would take a very long time, and it's not on me to judge when I've managed that. That's on the people I hurt, who aren't here.

[And even then, he's not convinced there's a real end to it. Not really.]

All I can do is keep trying to be better and use what I know to help people who need it.