(she doesn't want to give up. she can't give up and even with vi's words are speaking truth -- she refuse to believe it. but by each second that passes, jinx loses her momentum; arms slowly down with the splashing around to search until finally she halts.
her head is duck low as she tries to throw back her tears and swallow the huge lump in her throat. 'it's okay. don't cry. you're perfect.' the words of him echoes for her; shimmer tears trickle down her cheeks. she doesn't need to look up to know that chalk-like scribbles of his name is hovering all around her. jinx wraps her arms around herself -- holding herself so tightly as snowflakes sprinkle gently down to the waters. )
Why...? Why do I keep ruining everything...? I'm already jinxing things up. Even here I... I can't get away from it.
(her voice is very low but if vi listens very carefully, she is able to hear her mutter this to herself. and with her nails piercing sharply at her own skin, she subconsciously freezes the water around her. luckily, vi is still free to roam around in the waters but for jinx, she stuck herself there -- unable to break free or wiggle around. but does she want to? not really. a walking curse like her belongs to be isolated and away from everyone and everything. she is born to lose and to be damned no matter where she is, no matter how many times she can restart herself.)
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her head is duck low as she tries to throw back her tears and swallow the huge lump in her throat. 'it's okay. don't cry. you're perfect.' the words of him echoes for her; shimmer tears trickle down her cheeks. she doesn't need to look up to know that chalk-like scribbles of his name is hovering all around her. jinx wraps her arms around herself -- holding herself so tightly as snowflakes sprinkle gently down to the waters. )
Why...? Why do I keep ruining everything...? I'm already jinxing things up. Even here I... I can't get away from it.
(her voice is very low but if vi listens very carefully, she is able to hear her mutter this to herself. and with her nails piercing sharply at her own skin, she subconsciously freezes the water around her. luckily, vi is still free to roam around in the waters but for jinx, she stuck herself there -- unable to break free or wiggle around. but does she want to? not really. a walking curse like her belongs to be isolated and away from everyone and everything. she is born to lose and to be damned no matter where she is, no matter how many times she can restart herself.)