[Varian trusts Mako to nudge him along to somewhere safe to talk, just as he trusts Mako with this information at all. To let him in and allow his help because he desperately needs it. Even Mako's words are some odd comfort. He doesn't want to be told that things will be okay, or that he's overreacting. Varian's a realist, coddling is the last thing he needs- he needs the cold hard facts and how he can work with those.
He remembers Mako telling him how his parents died. The horrible irony of them being killed by a power their own child possessed. How badly that must have made Mako fear his own abilities- they provided him with an understanding Varian desperately needs right now. ]
I know. [He rubs his hands together, fingers tight and shaking- he's trying to keep himself from losing it. It's been such a long, freaky day and he just wants it to stop.] I know, but I- I don't know how.
[It's admitting weakness, he knows- but better this than fighting this alone and getting someone hurt. It's not even that he feels too proud to ask for help- it's just that even now he feels he probably doesn't deserve it. He turns to look at Mako, wide-eyed and very worried. ]
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He remembers Mako telling him how his parents died. The horrible irony of them being killed by a power their own child possessed. How badly that must have made Mako fear his own abilities- they provided him with an understanding Varian desperately needs right now. ]
I know. [He rubs his hands together, fingers tight and shaking- he's trying to keep himself from losing it. It's been such a long, freaky day and he just wants it to stop.] I know, but I- I don't know how.
[It's admitting weakness, he knows- but better this than fighting this alone and getting someone hurt. It's not even that he feels too proud to ask for help- it's just that even now he feels he probably doesn't deserve it. He turns to look at Mako, wide-eyed and very worried. ]
I need help.