[well. this hits a little closer to home. she's never really had a reason to pull herself out of her slump, to get over her anger at her family. not like this, the way she is now. the half of her body that isn't being used for support tightens up, her fist closing. she tries not to grit her teeth too badly when she speaks.]

I've been thrown to the other side of that window by the people who were supposed to love me. I left them all behind. [all of them; she can't let herself think about beth.] I started down my own path. Threw away everything they planned for me and went out into the unknown. Rose even came with me, for a bit. [until the fight.]

I don't know if that answers your question, but I think it gives me a good idea of what Eusan was really like for you. [she lets her hand open again as she squashes down the anger. now isn't the time. they're almost there, after all.] Sounds like going out into space could only have been an improvement.