[ he looks at her for a moment longer. then he sighs, shaking his head. ]
Look. Of course I like it? How would I not like it. It feels... nice. Really nice. Like someone's actually willing to look at me, and I don't get why but I don't have to?
[ he doesn't stop talking. maybe it's bad of him. it's probably pretty shitty. but even if it's their first meeting, anna feels like someone he can trust. someone he already knows. someone who's known his name since before he was born. ]
I know it's just the same thing as it was with Jupiter. I'm not... stupid. I know that I'm not actually someone you'd be interested in like that, and that's fine, that's how it has to be. That's just how it is.
[ it's that way because it has to be. because someone said so. because it's on purpose. ]
But when it goes back and forth, it just feels... bad. Like, it's not a joke anymore, or teasing the way friends tease each other when they only hate each other a little. Then it just feels like a reminder. In case I've somehow forgotten.
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[ he looks at her for a moment longer. then he sighs, shaking his head. ]
Look. Of course I like it? How would I not like it. It feels... nice. Really nice. Like someone's actually willing to look at me, and I don't get why but I don't have to?
[ he doesn't stop talking. maybe it's bad of him. it's probably pretty shitty. but even if it's their first meeting, anna feels like someone he can trust. someone he already knows. someone who's known his name since before he was born. ]
I know it's just the same thing as it was with Jupiter. I'm not... stupid. I know that I'm not actually someone you'd be interested in like that, and that's fine, that's how it has to be. That's just how it is.
[ it's that way because it has to be. because someone said so. because it's on purpose. ]
But when it goes back and forth, it just feels... bad. Like, it's not a joke anymore, or teasing the way friends tease each other when they only hate each other a little. Then it just feels like a reminder. In case I've somehow forgotten.
That probably doesn't make sense. Sorry, I guess.