[ and then she says that, the first dude i've ever done that with. and even though it's not much, it's not enough to change things completely, it's still a new context. she doesn't like guys, either. not like that. this wasn't just her flirting with a guy.
he doesn't fully know why that makes his chest rest easier, why the knot in his guts eases just a bit. but it does. ]
Haha. You're the first girl I've ever done that with, either? If that helps. [ it's a joke, and an obvious one at that. but he still seems like he's relaxing, a tiny bit. he takes another puff, shaping his lips into an O before blowing out a more controlled stream of smoke. ] ...last night, before I woke up here, I, uh- I did a lot of things for the first time. I drank without my parents, and I played truth or dare, and I, um... I got chosen to play Seven Minutes in Heaven with a girl.
[ it's weird. he shouldn't be saying all this to a woman he just met, someone ten years older than him. but she feels safe, just as much as she feels dangerous. she feels like the devil's whisper, with the three of them huddling around a radio. he needs that, right now. ]
We didn't- kiss, or anything. [ he laughs, and if he sounds a bit sad he certainly doesn't sound like he regrets that so much as what it stood for. ] But she touched my hair a lot, and she told me I felt... Different? Safe, I guess. And I feel like that's probably good enough. You know?
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he doesn't fully know why that makes his chest rest easier, why the knot in his guts eases just a bit. but it does. ]
Haha. You're the first girl I've ever done that with, either? If that helps. [ it's a joke, and an obvious one at that. but he still seems like he's relaxing, a tiny bit. he takes another puff, shaping his lips into an O before blowing out a more controlled stream of smoke. ] ...last night, before I woke up here, I, uh- I did a lot of things for the first time. I drank without my parents, and I played truth or dare, and I, um... I got chosen to play Seven Minutes in Heaven with a girl.
[ it's weird. he shouldn't be saying all this to a woman he just met, someone ten years older than him. but she feels safe, just as much as she feels dangerous. she feels like the devil's whisper, with the three of them huddling around a radio. he needs that, right now. ]
We didn't- kiss, or anything. [ he laughs, and if he sounds a bit sad he certainly doesn't sound like he regrets that so much as what it stood for. ] But she touched my hair a lot, and she told me I felt... Different? Safe, I guess. And I feel like that's probably good enough. You know?